13

My beautiful baby girls turn 13 today!!! I can't believe it has been 13 years since God gave them to me. Our family has traveled down so many roads in 13 years. Many states, jobs, homes, schools,friends,churches. Many changes and few constants. But the few constants that we have had have proved to be the MOST important. God and family. I am so thankful for the many adventures that we have been on and I am even more thankful that we have gotten to do it together. Baily and Shelby have gone from being these bouncey little girls to these beautiful,spunky, young ladies. We laugh together and cry together. But most importantly....We do life together.

Thank you God for allowing me to mother Baily and Shelby. I pray that they grow into women that point people toward you. I pray that they are women of influence, women of peace, and women of honor. I pray that they use everything you have given them, to honor you and bring people to you.

Fear

Been so busy with traveling and life. I feel like it has been so long since I blogged. I miss writing. I miss hashing out the thoughts in my head. I will do better!

I am on week 4 of the Beth Moore Esther study. Each week has caused me to reflect on the past troubles or stories that our family or I have gone through. Honestly....I find that none really apply to me RIGHT NOW. All have been great weeks and I find so much joy in reflecting and remembering how God has shown himself through so many situations.

But...
This week was about fear. I feel like I have struggled with fear for a very long time. Fear of abandonment, fear of death, fear of children dying, fear fear fear. I have blogged about different fears on numerous occasions. As I have learned to recognize my fears, I have also learned to deal with them. Giving them to God and trusting that no matter what....even if my worst fears come true.....then He is still in control and everything that happens is about His love for us.
In last night's study Beth Moore talked about playing out your worst fear. And then she asked "Then what?" If your worst fear happens, then what?
Point: No matter what happens.... eventually you will get up and move on. As hard as that seems....we eventually will move on.
So that got me to thinking about my worst fear. Realizing that if I have a "worst fear" then I give the enemy something to use.
1 John 4:18
"For Such love has no fear...." Thank you God that you love us in such a way that we have nothing to fear. Thank you for giving us the chance to love others in the same way that you love us. Thank you for taking my fears and turning them into opportunities to see you work.