Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Fear

Been so busy with traveling and life. I feel like it has been so long since I blogged. I miss writing. I miss hashing out the thoughts in my head. I will do better!

I am on week 4 of the Beth Moore Esther study. Each week has caused me to reflect on the past troubles or stories that our family or I have gone through. Honestly....I find that none really apply to me RIGHT NOW. All have been great weeks and I find so much joy in reflecting and remembering how God has shown himself through so many situations.

But...
This week was about fear. I feel like I have struggled with fear for a very long time. Fear of abandonment, fear of death, fear of children dying, fear fear fear. I have blogged about different fears on numerous occasions. As I have learned to recognize my fears, I have also learned to deal with them. Giving them to God and trusting that no matter what....even if my worst fears come true.....then He is still in control and everything that happens is about His love for us.
In last night's study Beth Moore talked about playing out your worst fear. And then she asked "Then what?" If your worst fear happens, then what?
Point: No matter what happens.... eventually you will get up and move on. As hard as that seems....we eventually will move on.
So that got me to thinking about my worst fear. Realizing that if I have a "worst fear" then I give the enemy something to use.
1 John 4:18
"For Such love has no fear...." Thank you God that you love us in such a way that we have nothing to fear. Thank you for giving us the chance to love others in the same way that you love us. Thank you for taking my fears and turning them into opportunities to see you work.

1 comment:

ocean mommy said...

That was a huge week for me as well. Fear has been a HUGE thing in my life.

There is such a freedom of getting to a point of believing that if the worst thing we can imagine happened...we would get back up and live. God is going to be in control regardless of our circumstances...

Just wait until week 6...it just gets better and better.