Friday, August 20, 2010

Why?

In the past weeks I have been thinking alot about why I do what I do. I am not sure why God has put this one my mind. The only thing that I can figure is because He wants me to look at my motives in the little and big things that I do. Some are silly and insignificant. But some are major parts of our family. So this post is more about thinking out loud in writing.


Why do I home school? I am at like 753 reasons right now :-) But really, I home school because this is one way I can serve my family. It is one way that I can be who I feel like God called me to be. It is not about education. It is about faith and family.
Why do I not exercise regularly? Time, energy, and Time. Ok I guess if I have time to blog then I have time to workout. OK OK (head hanging) I'm convicted.
Why do I love to read but yet watch too much TV? Simply.....TV does not need a silent room to be enjoyed. A Book does. (at least for me:-)
Why do I serve in the areas I serve in? hmmmm, I need to think on this one a bit more. The short answer is because there is a need. I love people, love my church, and love Jesus. So I guess where ever the need.....then that is where I end up. I don't know if that is the right answer. But it is truthful. (Oh, I do love kids too :-)
Why do I drive slower than I used to? Because there are 4 precious people that travel everywhere with me. Because the older you get the more it hurts when you get hurt. Tickets are EXPENSIVE! and cops aren't as nice as they used to be.
Why do I not have many friends? I am cautious who I let my walls down around. And I don't do the "girlie" thing well. Nails, hair, giggling, going to the bathroom together.
Why do I like to get on my knees when I talk to children? I like to make kids feel special.
Why do I love politics but never got involved? I love the passion that politicians have. No matter what the motivation or cause....they are passionate. I could never get involved because in the grand scheme of it all ....none of it really matters. I would much rather invest my time at church.
Why do I love my church? Because they are some of the most passionate people I know. And it is for a cause that matters.
Why do I love to travel but never do? There is a season for everything.
Why do I love to sleep but can't sleep when my Hubby is away? Fear. I normally go to sleep praying for peace. And watching Fox News :-)

As I think through some of this stuff it brings up other questions. Good questions. It kind of forces me to look closely at many of the things that I say I like/love or the things that I do and ask why? Why do you do the things that you do? Why do you not do the things that you want to do? Why do you do the things that you don't want to do?



Just a small journey into my brains.

~LL


2 comments:

Zuzu said...

I'm going to disagree with one of your reasons you don't do something. Politics DO matter. Look how godless our nation is getting. Look at the decisions that are being made that will and do affect our families, churches, religious freedoms. I'm just saying, if Christians don't think politics matter, we're in for a rude awakening. I think God is already starting to assert his displeasure with this nation turning its back on Him. Not that your lack of political ambition is turning your back on him. Perhaps your calling isn't in politics. Anyway, I love you and so glad you're blogging again! :-)

Lindsay said...

I feel like if churches were being who called God called them to be and doing what God called them to do.... then there would be far less frustration with what the government is doing or not doing.
People talk about making a difference and change....but it is in the Church that I feel like we have the greatest opportunity to effect our world. Yes politics do matter. But not compared to other things. A world without politics....I guess that is was heaven will be :-)

Doesn't mean I don't enjoy the craziness of politics. It is like a marionette show where everyone's strings are crossed. They all think they are in charge when, really they are all wrong.

Love you too. I have missed blogging ^i^